Over and over I find that acceptance is conditional. It is simple, if I do, be, act attend or serve in one way or another, and do this properly, I can recieve some acceptance. This is difficult, because one must do, be, serve, attend and never show an incling that this action isn't ones most desired and heartfelt adoring action.
One must serve up shit with a smile, take it on ones back with the right happy noises, and bow in submission while wagging ones tail.
This is of course regardless of circumstance.... it doesn't matter if this is required at work, home, with friends, family or partners...or just the world.
It is the rules of engagement.
The rules....
Examining them, I am baffled how other doms manage to exist as self and be served in any way. Devotion seems not to exist in my world, nor in a real one on one personal daily way. It is always conditional. I must do the right things, give more in order to get...a pittance.
So off I go on my flights of fantasy, where I dream of a peaceful live, with people who adore me that I can see, smile at and talk to, a warm house, some fun adventures and an occasional trip to the dungeon for my nice energy vampire fix.... since blood is verboten.
This photo is an illusion, just like me.
This photo is shot in full daylight, but I have captured the illusion of shadow. I suspect I am the illusion of many things as well...
pax
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